Birthing in the New Normal
During Dani's pregnancy it didn't quite feel real. I was slightly detached as many dad's must feel during the process. We don't have the same connection, physiological changes, and emotional connection as momma. I was supportive but I was also a bit reserved. Part of that may have been because of going through a previous pregnancy, the newness of the experience was not present. Maybe our age and worrying about the viability of the pregnancy had me slightly removed. Whatever the case was I know that I wasn't nearly as empathic, present, and connected as I should have been. And then it happened... My wife called me at work to let me know she was getting close. I sped home. Seriously! Flew home, even got the speeding (warning) ticket to prove it. I ran in the door to check on Dani. Finding out she was ok and we had some time I began walking through the house loading up the last few things for the hospital, constantly circling back to my wife to make sure she was ok....